Thursday 20 September 2007

Happy!

I’m blogging from my new laptop! Yes! Finally I bought my computer. It has been something that I’ve wanted ever since I came back to Singapore. Have been saving up and during the IT fair at the beginning of the month, finally went to buy it! It’s such a good buy too! The laptop has good specs, more than what I needed, and comes at a price that meets my budget. I’m so happy!

Now, I will have to start signing up for internet connection at home. No use having a laptop with no internet connection. Makes it useless leh. I’m using the free wireless connection at the library now. Very heavy to lug the laptop and walk to the library but there’s air-conditioning at the library, definitely much more comfortable than if I use at home.

I’ve stopped working since this week. Last Friday was my last day. Not bad. I’ve been going for interviews almost everyday this week too. It’s really a boost of my confidence! It was a good decision to work for the Chin family in the beginning. I really achieved my motive of gaining experience while with them. Now, when I go for interviews, my experience as a PA is really recognised. All the companies seems to want to hire me. Of course, still have to go for 2nd interviews, so still waiting. But if I’m called back for 2nd interviews, means I stand a good chance, right? Anyway, there’s these 2 jobs that are more or less confirmed to hire me. However, the distance is pretty far. I have another job that I’m quite interested in and I have to go for a 2nd time on Friday. Keep my fingers crossed!

I’m so happy now to have my own computer. Ha! Well, have to go download stuffs for the laptop. Hopefully I can sign up for internet connection at home soon. Then, I can blog more regularly!

Thursday 6 September 2007

Farewell…

On the last Sunday of August, I organised a farewell dinner for one beloved sister-in-Christ, let’s call her J. She’s going to Taiwan to follow her dream. Though vague with details and plans, I still wish her well, much to the worries of the others around her. Yes, silly and dangerous for a single girl to go alone to a foreign land. Yes, silly to leave your family and friends and a stable job to chase a dream. Having also done that when I left for USA, I can understand why J did it. She feels that it’s the right time, and things are going smoothly for her to go, isn’t it? This feeling of the right time, very hard to explain. Some would say that it’s God telling us to do something, some would call it gut feeling. Whatever it is, only the person experiencing it would know
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The main point of this post is not whether J made the right decision to go or not. The point of this post is: Why does it take a person leaving to get all of us together? The dinner had almost 100% attendance. Almost. One person couldn’t make it at the last minute. One of the brothers said when he knew that J was leaving, no matter what, he’ll make it for this farewell dinner. My question is, ‘why’? Why do we try to get together only when we know there’s no more time for us to get together anymore? What about the time that there was plenty of time for each other? How do we know when is the last time we get together? How do we know that we can get the chance to have a ‘farewell’ dinner? Have often heard of people saying, ‘Live each day like it’s your last’. So based on this saying, shouldn’t we always treasure each and every time we have a chance to get together? It may be for a casual, nothing-to-do, sort of dinner, but if it’s quality time spent with the friends we love, the brothers and sisters we care about, shouldn’t we always make the effort?


What if I have no time for ‘Farewell’?

Monday 3 September 2007

Reality Check

Have been trying to carry out some plans lately. A lot of things went through my mind actually. Realised that things may not be what I always wanted. Also realised that while I can think in some way, others may not think the same.

Last Friday night, I called London to the Lynchs house. Anne, my host mum, has given birth on 26th August. It’s a boy! Just like what I predicted and wanted! Conor Daniel Lynch. Very nice. I’m very happy for them. Really. According to Anne, Kara and Brigid are very excited to have their baby brother. They even brought pictures of their new baby brother to show their teachers and classmates in school. Good for them.

However, during the course of the conversation, I asked for a favour and the answer I got was not what I expected. Totally threw me off. I was not expecting that to be the response I get from the beloved host family, host parents that I knew. Don’t really want to go into details, but the gist of it was that I had my share of fun with them in Fairfield, CT, USA. Now, it’s time for them to be a family, for them to bond together, especially since Conor is their biological child, they hope to spend more time to be with the girls and that I should leave them be. So, all along, the phrase, ‘like family…’ the key word is ‘like’. I’m not family, just like family.

Was feeling very hurtful, sad and depressed for the whole of the weekend. Cried every night thinking of what Anne said. She was honest, I give her that, but ti’s just too brutally honest. Sensitive me, from Asia, could not accept it. Now, with Anne’s words, came a reality check for me also. I reconsidered my decision to carry out a crazy plan and have come to a final decision. So, I feel better now. Calmer. I know what to do next and can at least make solid plans. Just think that this time, God wants me to stay, so I’m going to stay.

Still a lot of things going on these few days. I’m so over-whelmed by events. Going to take it slowly and digest things over. I hope everything works out in the end and I won’t get into a tight corner by my rash decision. Pray for me. Walk with me.