Boring life

Yes, I’m bored. Judging from my lack of entries, you can tell how bored my life is right now. So bored that I don’t have anything to blog about. Which frustrates me greatly. I love to write. I love this blog space for me to write my feelings and thinking out, albeit on limited topics as posting on the world wide web, you never know who’s going to be reading.

Anyway, now that I’m blogging, you may think I have something interesting to share. Well, I do have something up my sleeves but I don’t think it’s the right time to share now. Maybe in a week or two. When it’s more confirmed. When it’s more sure. When I’m not thinking so much about it.

Well, have been thinking of changing jobs for the longest time. Not very long, actually, if you know that I started work only in mid-March. I thought I could take it easy and gain more experience before I start looking for the next job. Not good for resume to be at a job for just a few months. However, circumstances have changed. I don’t like the working environment now. In fact, I hate it. I’m going to go as soon as everything’s confirmed. Well, not go immediately, but at least tender my resignation. Don’t want to be working in this environment. It’s not very good and I don’t want to take sides. It’s none of my business, why should I be in the middle of it all?

Even though I’m close to the big Three-O, I still feel very immature. I get bored easily, I get restless easily, I get ‘hong sim’ very easily! Yes, I do want to settle down, but can’t be just with any Tom, Dick or Harry, right? Have to be the right person. The thing is, when I like a person, the person is not interested. When I’m not interested, another person like me. Not that I have any interest in anyone or anyone is interested in me now. My love life is……blank. So sad. Not really sad lah. That’s the point of doing something different. If I stay in this sphere, in this space any longer, I’ll just remain status quo. Might as well do something about it, right? You don’t know what I’m talking about. Never mind. Will let you know soon enough.



Rachelle
July 10, 2007 at 7:21 pm

Don’t worry, you are not alone. Most of the feelings you are experiencing are very common amongst many people…I’m a victim of it as well - change of job, blank life, feeling immatured..(the list goes on but I shall not elaborate too much on myself..hehe).But whatever it is, if you feel you have the ability to make things better, please do it! Life is too short to have too many regrets right?
Shall wait for your BIG news..:-)

Interesting Sunday

It has been a very long time since I spent a Sunday like this. The Sunday just past, I went to church in the morning and after service, had a meeting for the tuition ministry that’s going to start soon for the 2nd semester. After that, as it was ZC’s birthday, we went for lunch. Not many of us. Only 7 people. By that time, most of the others had left.

Went to have chicken rice at Thomson Road, opposite Novena Church. Very good food. I like it. Not too expensive also. After that went to the Hong Kong Cafe next door to have drinks and dessert. By the the everyone is ready to go, it’s already 5pm plus. Imagine we just finished lunch and it’s already dinner time.

ZC and Zer wanted to shop around for furniture and I was not tired so I decided to walk around with them. They couldn’t find what they’re looking for in United Square. I suggested going to AMK as there’s many small neighbourhood furniture which could be better value for money. So went to AMK. Walked around some more. By 7pm plus, Zer is very tired. We decided to get drinks at KFC and to sit and rest our feet. We were still very full from lunch, so did not want to eat.

Don’t know why, ZC is very ‘hong sim’ that day. He got me to call Dennis. Dennis also doesn’t mind coming down to AMK for a chat. Went to the Mac opposite AMK library. Nice place and atmosphere. We sat there till 11pm plus before going home.

Throughout the whole day, there was a certain topic that we debated about. It’s too complicated and I don’t really want to mislead non-Christians, so not going to post what we were arguing about. It’s a heavy topic and concerns our religious beliefs as well as our social beliefs. Though things can be quite clear cut, there’s a lot of spaces for arguments. Ultimately, it’s how we decide to face up to our actions that has us determining our decisions.

Anyway, I’m glad for the chance to talk to brothers and sisters. It’s been a long time since we spent so much time together, since I missed the church camp. When I first joined this church, this was how we spent every Sunday and I mean really every Sunday. Now that commitments and age has caught up, being able to spend a full Sunday outside is really a gift. Hope to be able to have meaningful time spent with brothers and sisters more often.

My name

In lieu of anything interesting to write recently and I have some free time, I decided to share with everyone the history of my name, or names, as I have a lot of names.

Long before I was born, in fact, before any of my brothers were born too, my parents were just married(or maybe they were not married yet but were getting married soon, not too sure of the details) and had no children yet. My paternal grandfather just happened to pass away at that time. My father, being the oldest son of the family, had to carve down his children’s names on my grandfather’s tombstone(what kind of culture or tradition is that??). Since no actual children were had at that time, my father just came up with a boy’s name and a girl’s name. Now, it also happens that on this day of name carving, my mum was not present and so the names were decided upon by my dad. My dad was English-educated and not very good with Chinese and lo and behold, he came up with 郑春发 for the boy’s name and 郑玲玲 for the girl’s name.

Some time later, my mum got pregnant and gave birth to my oldest brother. Now, my mum wants to name her children herself. She decided to give my brother the name of 郑伟祺. This, translated into English, earned my oldest brother the name of Wekie. However, out of respect for the elders, the name on the tombstone still has to be used, so on the birth certificate of my oldest brother, in English, his name is Tay Choon Huat, Wekie. The Chinese characters written, however, was 郑伟祺 and not 郑春发. When my oldest brother started school, he finds 郑春发 too ‘obiang’ and he used 郑伟祺 as his official Chinese name. This leads to a lot of questions to him as the Chinese and English doesn’t fit.

Next, came my second brother. As he’s not a girl, he can’t possibly use 郑玲玲. My mum decided to follow from my oldest brother’s name and named my second brother 郑伟利. This is again translated into English and my second brother got the name of Willy. So, my second brother is conveniently named Tay Willy, Chinese character 郑伟利. He doesn’t have any problems in using what Chinese names but he doesn’t have a Chinese name in English, if you know what I mean.

Next came me. Thank the Lord it’s a girl and my parents are able to use the girl’s name on the tombstone and so I was named Tay Ling Ling. Again, my mum wanted to name me herself and also to carry on from what my brothers were named, I was given a Chinese name of 郑玮妮. This was translated into Winnie. So, on my birth certificate, like my oldest brother, I was given the English name of Tay Ling Ling, Winnie and Chinese character 郑玮妮.

Now, why wasn’t I, like my oldest brother, using 郑玮妮 when I started school? There’s two reasons for this. One, my mum feels that 玲玲 doesn’t sound as bad as 春发. Two, my mum feels that 玲玲 is easier to learn to write than 玮妮. So, when I was learning to write my name in kindergarten, she taught me to write 玲玲 instead of 玮妮, so the name stuck. When I got older and understood this story, I felt that 玮妮 is a more unique name and wanted to use it but by then, all my certificates and important things are using 玲玲, so it’s too late to change.

From this story, you can see that parents play a big part in what their children are named. My brothers and me have been shaped so much by my parents, even in such a simple thing as a name. Parents! Take note what you teach your children and what you name them!