Bored

Have not been updating my blog for so long. Various reasons for that.

1) I have writer’s block.

2) I’m losing interest in blogging.

3) My life has been so boring that I don’t want to always be writing and whining about my life and so on. Makes me seems such a loser and (again) boring!

Anyway, I’ve been reading a long lost friend’s blog recently and after reading it, feels like I’ve known so much about her that I didn’t realise before. Was very thankful for that and I thought since I’m a person of few words, blogging is the only thing that allows my friends to peek into my thoughts. So, here I am again.

I’m still stuck at my stressful job. Happy news is that I intend to hand in my resignation tomorrow. Very scary thing. Going to see my boss. Everyone in the office is scared to talk to him. I wonder if I really will summon up enough courage to go talk to him. Yes, I’m leaving without a back-up plan or new job to go to. I always do that. Very impulsive. So far, God has been good. At least I’ve not starved before. So this time, I’m doing the same thing. Seems to be pushing my luck but I really dread going to work everyday. This has been happening since the first day I started this job, so I think leaving is a right decision.

The recent CNY period has been very fulfilling and happy. Of course the foremost reason would be that I need not work for a whole week. That was the happiest part. Other reasons are that I went to Malaysia with my mum to visit my aunts, uncles and cousins. Very good to see them after so long. But seeing how big my cousins have grown makes me feel old. I have been playing and taking care of them since they were born and now some are in University already. They no longer feel as excited to see me now and even has their own friends and life. Oh well, that’s life, I guess.

I also went to Batam for 2 days of relaxation and spa. Best! Totally enjoyed it and the package was really good value for money! Initially was supposed to go alone, but WJ decided to join me. I was glad that she did, if not I think I will wallow in self-pity for most of the time I was there. Though we are both quiet type, the silence between us was comfortable and not awkward, thanks to more than 15 years of friendship. I totally recommend going to Batam if you have a budget and limited days of leave. 2 days 1 night is more than enough. Nothing much to do actually but relaxing in the room or just walking around is good too.

I would be going on a short mission trip in early March and for a long-planned holiday to Japan in early April. I know I’m going to be jobless soon. I do have some plans in mind but yet to carry out. Right now, I just want to freak out when I think about going to work tomorrow. I wish I can give an immediate resignation but I don’t want to be irresponsible. Anyway, see how things turn out. Will update about it. Hopefully.