Taiwanese talkshow on Singapore’s politics

Have been trying to post the Youtube video onto the blog but it can’t seem to work. Anyway, go to the website and watch

Youtube text link

It’s a Taiwanese talkshow talking about Singapore’s democracy and transparency and comparisons with Taiwan’s political scene.

Counducted in Mandarin and Hokkien.

Life, as I know it now

Have been staying at my boss’s place for a week now. Life is not too bad actually, after all, I have 2 maids to cook for me, no need to wash up, no need to clean up, no need to worry about getting up on time for work.

As I was showering this morning, I was thinking, this would be what it would be like when I get married and move out of my home. I’ve been living in Ang Mo Kio my whole life. Seriously, even before I was born, I’ve been living there. Have never moved before. Until I moved to USA, I used to like my home very much. Now that I came back from USA, where I had a big house, big room, big bed, big bathroom and everything new, I came back to my home feeling that everything’s so old and dirty. Now that I’ve moved out temporary, I don’t really think of returning home so often. If not for the fact that I need to go home to get my things, I wouldn’t even feel like going home.

Things have been almost worked to a routine now at my boss’s house. There’s SCV and internet wireless access at the house here. I sleep every night after 12am, just surfing net and watching tv. I don’t have to wake up too early as I’m already at the house, there’s no travelling time to make up for. I don’t even go to the hospital everyday to see my boss because it’s her baby that she wants to see, not me. This in turn gives me lots of free time. It’s not too bad a life style.

Anyway, I’m rambling. I do really want to write something but there’s nothing much interesting going on. The plans I had earlier are all on hold now because of this complication in my work. Will have to see what’s going to happen and wait for things to go back to normal again before I can decide on what to do.

People close to my heart

Having been abroad for so long, I’ve been missing a lot of friends. Out of all, I decided to show these people who are the closest to my heart. If not for them, I would have happily stayed abroad and not think of returning ever so often. Not to say, they’re the ones who I can’t bear to leave although the temptation is so great to.

Noelle (on the left). Xinqing and Dezhong’s cute daughter. Went through the whole process of Xinqing’s pregnancy to when Noelle was born. Most of my baby experience came from playing with Noelle ever since she was born. I left before her 1st birthday and came back when she’s 3 years. Yixuan (on right). Xiaoling and Enwei’s daughter. I left just as Xiaoling announced her pregnancy. Missed all the actions. She’s already 2 years old now and learning lots of things. I’m glad she’s taken to me quite fast and is willing to share her smiles with me. Feel quite proud of myself as she’s not known to be friendly! Haha!

Noah. Noelle’s little brother. He’s 1 year old now. He’s going to be one mischievous boy but you can’t help but fall in love with him when he smiles at you. Unlike his sister, he either shows a blur or naughty face most of the time. Not so easy to pacify and getting more demanding.

My Bangkok shopping and massaging kakis! Had a great time with them in Bangkok. They’re also the core ‘hong sim’ group with whom I shared many ‘news’ with, over many cups of teh tarik. They’re the people whom I find the hardest to leave and they’re always the ones to know the latest in my life, and I would go to should I have any problems or concerns.

My beloved fellowship group! Yes, they’re the ones I think of most when I’m away. Oh, lots of others are missing, mostly those parents who have child-care obligations. Don’t worry, I miss your children, I miss you guys too(you know who you are)! I’ve been in this fellowship ever since I came to this church 8 years ago (such a long time ago!). They’re the ones I count on to keep me grounded. They offer me advises based on their view point of life and also on biblical point of view, so I treasure each and every one of them. Due to our work, social, and life commitments, it is rare for us to gather in a big group as shown in the pictures. As such, each gathering is treasured and remembered. God bless each one of them.

Unexpected situation

Exactly after my post of a boring life, my life turns not boring at all. In fact, it all turns into such chaotic situation that I don’t have any time to think and any choices to make.

I can’t really explain too much as this involves my boss’s family matters and again, you never know who’s reading on the World Wide Web.

Something happened to my boss and her family members. The real reason I don’t know also, but it was UGLY! Then, one thing led to another and I ended up staying over at my boss’s condo apartment with two maids and a one year old baby. Yes, I’m moving over here for a few days till my boss can come home. (Can’t say what happened to my boss as don’t want to let the wrong person to read and get scolded by my boss.)

Now, you may think it’s good to live in a condo and have two maids to command. You’re wrong! Moving here is like working 24 hours (which is exactly the point of having me move here) and added to that, I have to deal with some side issues involving the family members. The emotional side of me makes it hard for me to deal with that and it adds to a lot of stress and pressure. Sometimes it even turns scary.

Anyway, I don’t know when I can go home. I have so many church commitments on the days that I’m not supposed to work, i.e Friday nights and weekends, that I’m not sure if I can commit to my work and stay here to help. I know I should help in this situation but I have my responsibilities also in my church commitments. I also enjoy my church things.

Another problem of this situation is that I don’t know if I can tender in my resignation. Actually intended to tender next week when I think I should be able to confirm my plans but now, how am I going to tell my boss? She’s so weak and needs my help now. Me tendering my resignation is like giving her blow after blow. Of course, it’s my life. I can’t be selling my life to my boss. We didn’t even have any binding work contract between us! It’s all just a matter of trust.

Oh boy, this is getting interesting. Hmm… if only every time I wish for something, it comes true and in a short time, like this time, with the interesting life.

Boring life

Yes, I’m bored. Judging from my lack of entries, you can tell how bored my life is right now. So bored that I don’t have anything to blog about. Which frustrates me greatly. I love to write. I love this blog space for me to write my feelings and thinking out, albeit on limited topics as posting on the world wide web, you never know who’s going to be reading.

Anyway, now that I’m blogging, you may think I have something interesting to share. Well, I do have something up my sleeves but I don’t think it’s the right time to share now. Maybe in a week or two. When it’s more confirmed. When it’s more sure. When I’m not thinking so much about it.

Well, have been thinking of changing jobs for the longest time. Not very long, actually, if you know that I started work only in mid-March. I thought I could take it easy and gain more experience before I start looking for the next job. Not good for resume to be at a job for just a few months. However, circumstances have changed. I don’t like the working environment now. In fact, I hate it. I’m going to go as soon as everything’s confirmed. Well, not go immediately, but at least tender my resignation. Don’t want to be working in this environment. It’s not very good and I don’t want to take sides. It’s none of my business, why should I be in the middle of it all?

Even though I’m close to the big Three-O, I still feel very immature. I get bored easily, I get restless easily, I get ‘hong sim’ very easily! Yes, I do want to settle down, but can’t be just with any Tom, Dick or Harry, right? Have to be the right person. The thing is, when I like a person, the person is not interested. When I’m not interested, another person like me. Not that I have any interest in anyone or anyone is interested in me now. My love life is……blank. So sad. Not really sad lah. That’s the point of doing something different. If I stay in this sphere, in this space any longer, I’ll just remain status quo. Might as well do something about it, right? You don’t know what I’m talking about. Never mind. Will let you know soon enough.



Rachelle
July 10, 2007 at 7:21 pm

Don’t worry, you are not alone. Most of the feelings you are experiencing are very common amongst many people…I’m a victim of it as well - change of job, blank life, feeling immatured..(the list goes on but I shall not elaborate too much on myself..hehe).But whatever it is, if you feel you have the ability to make things better, please do it! Life is too short to have too many regrets right?
Shall wait for your BIG news..:-)